A confession of past..

Today is 18 September 2012,
My old friend's birthday.
I was in college wished him through the the phone only.
I talked to him, it felt good. The past we talked about.
The future plans.
On that day I went for a movie with my college friends.
The name of the movie was "Barfi".
It was a emotional movie.
Made me upset.
I cried it reminded me of something.
I was so much traumatized. I was in deep pain.
I was not able to cry even.
I cannot cry in the class.
Not in front of my friends.
They know I'm sensitive.
There is a kid in my neighborhood.
He is autistic, He is special.
He comes to my home.
I remember, I hurt him once.
I was a menace.
I didn't care for his feelings.
I was not patient with him.
I hurt him.
I hurt him because he was not able to express.
I was there hurting him.
Crushing his hand.
I'm feeling guilty.
I know there is no way to repay it.
Today when I was sitting in the lecture classroom it came like a flash to my mind.
I was feeling so much guilty.
I could not explain.
I was feeling like that I was using my power on that little hands.
There was no mistake of him.
Why would he do any mistake?
I didn't enjoy hurting him.
But why would I hurt him?
I was a bad person at that moment.
I was a menace.
I'm asking God to forgive my sins.
I repent.
Please God forgive me.
Show me your path of light.
Show me the way to correct that mistake.